What is the best thing I love about my work?

The best thing I love about my work as a musician, especially as a violist, is the boundless creativity and expression it allows me to pursue. The viola’s rich, warm tone provides a unique voice that can convey a wide range of emotions. This expressive capability enables me to explore and communicate deep, nuanced feelings that words often can’t capture. Working with other musicians enhances this creative journey, as the dynamic interplay of ideas and interpretations challenges and inspires me to grow artistically. Being a musician offers continual learning and exploration, with new repertoire to discover and new techniques to master. This lifelong journey of musical discovery keeps my passion for music alive.

What is my idea of happiness?

My idea of happiness is deeply intertwined with the pursuit of success in the classical music world, despite its competitive nature and the difficulty in defining what success truly means. Success, to me, is not just about external recognition, but about achieving personal milestones and continuously growing as a musician. It involves mastering challenging pieces, delivering performances that resonate with audiences, and collaborating meaningfully with other musicians. In this highly competitive field, happiness also comes from finding joy in the process itself- the hours of practice, the moments of breakthrough, and the shared experiences with fellow artists. True happiness is rooted in the passion for music and the fulfillment it brings, regardless of how success is measured externally. It’s about the deep, personal satisfaction that comes from knowing I am doing what I love and constantly striving to be the best version of myself as a musician.

What is my greatest fear?

The possibility of failure in my career. I worry about not meeting the high expectations I’ve set for myself and those that others have for me.  Anxiety often creeps in, making me doubt my abilities. Comparing myself to my peers who seem more successful sometimes makes me feel inadequate. The instability of a music career adds to my fear, as I’m uncertain about securing steady work. I put immense pressure on myself to succeed, and falling short of my personal expectations feels like a personal failure.

What is a trait I deplore in myself?

When things go wrong, I tend to give up or feel sorry for myself, which puts me in a negative headspace. This negative mindset often leads to even more things going wrong. I’m aware of this tendency and it frustrates me because it becomes a vicious cycle that’s hard to break. I’ve made a conscious effort to shift my perspective when challenges arise. I’m working on staying positive and resilient, even when things don’t go as planned. It’s a slow process, but I’m gradually learning to approach setbacks with a more constructive attitude.

Which living persons in my profession do I most admire?

My teacher Martin Outram has guided and supported me throughout my undergraduate course at the Royal Academy of music and I am so grateful for him! Lawrence Power is my favorite performer and I was so lucky to work with him earlier this year.

What is my greatest extravagance?

My greatest extravagance is my musicality. Many people have told me that my musicality is what stands out the most about my playing. This feedback makes me incredibly happy because it comes very naturally to me. I consider it a gift that allows me to express myself fully through my instrument. However, one must practice the nitty gritty to be able to fully express musical intention. I sometimes just want to play the music instead of working on my technical skills.

What is the thing I dislike the most in my work?

The instability and poor pay that often accompany this career. The lack of financial security and the unpredictability of future opportunities can be quite stressful. While some musicians might argue that this uncertainty adds excitement to the job, and I agree to some extent, it also makes planning and sustaining a stable life challenging.

When and where was I happiest in my work?

When I realized I wanted to be a violist. This moment came when I was 16, playing in a youth orchestra. It was the end of a concert, and the experience was truly magical. I felt a profound sense of connection with my fellow musicians and the music we had created together. This experience solidified my passion for the viola and confirmed that this was the path I wanted to pursue.

If I could, what would I change about myself?

My extreme self-criticism. I think everyone struggles with this and it’s difficult to navigate sometimes because self-criticism is useful at times but can also be detrimental. I also tend to worry about the future too much. This anxiety often overshadows present moments, making it hard to fully enjoy life as it unfolds. I’m actively working on transforming this worry into a positive force. Instead of letting it cause anxiety, I’m using it to fuel my motivation and preparation for what’s ahead. By focusing on what I can control and setting realistic goals, I’m slowly learning to balance my concern for the future with an appreciation for the present. I’m beginning to see my worries not as obstacles, but as reminders to stay proactive and resilient. This shift in perspective is gradually making me more optimistic and empowered.

Where would I most like to live?

I currently live in London, a culturally rich city that I really enjoy. The fast-paced nature of London is exhilarating at times, but there are moments when I would like peace and remoteness. Ideally, I would love to live in a small Italian village near the beach, surrounded by nature. However, since my career is just beginning, living in a big city is essential for now.

What is my most treasured possession?

My viola, although it isn’t technically mine since it’s generously loaned to me! If I were to choose something that is truly mine, it would be my baby blanket. It’s a bit embarrassing to admit but it represents comfort, nostalgia, and a sense of continuity in my life.

What is my most marked characteristic?

I would say my kindness. I genuinely care about others and often put their needs before my own. I always strive to be supportive and considerate. This trait has helped me build strong, trusting relationships both personally and professionally. My kindness is something I take pride in, as it reflects my values and the way I wish to impact the world.

What is my most inspirational location, in my city?

Primrose Hill during sunset. Amidst the city’s hustle and bustle, Primrose Hill is a peaceful escape.

What is my favorite place to eat and drink in my city?

Pidgin in Hackney.

What books influenced my life and how?

Rough ideas: Reflections on music and more by Stephan Hough.

What piece of music would you listen to on your last day?

Bloch: Suite for Viola and Piano. This is one of my favorite works of all time and is what began my love for 20th century music.

Who are my real life heroes and heroines?

My parents have been incredibly supportive and I am eternally grateful for allowing me to pursue my passion.

Which movie would I recommend to see once in a lifetime?

Tokyo story.

What do the words ‘You are the storyteller of your own life’ mean to me?

The phrase ‘You are the storyteller of your own life’ emphasizes control over one’s life narrative. It means that you have the power to shape your experiences, decisions, and perceptions. You can frame your past, present, and future in ways that reflect your values, aspirations, and identity.

Who is my greatest fan, sponsor, partner in crime?

My boyfriend has been the best support anyone could ask for. His confidence in my abilities encourages me to pursue my dreams. I am so thankful for his kindness and understanding.

Which people or companies would I like to work with?

The London Symphony Orchestra, the New York Philharmonic, the Berliner Philharmoniker, Camerata Nordica, Deutches Kammerphilharmonie Bremen. Maxim Rysanov and Tabea Zimmerman.

What project am I excited to work on?

I am excited to continue my studies into Postgraduate. I have auditions in the near future, and this year is a busy one for me!

Where can you see me or my work?

@catherineanushkawhiteviola on Instagram and YouTube. I post recordings and insight into future recitals and concerts.

What do the words ‘Passion never retires’ mean to me?

It signifies that true passion is timeless and enduring. It means that my genuine interests and fervor remain vibrant regardless of age or circumstance. This concept inspires me to pursue what I love with relentless energy, knowing that passion doesn’t diminish with time. It encourages me to continuously seek growth and fulfillment in my pursuits, even as I grow older. The idea suggests that passion is a driving force that keeps life exciting and purposeful. It reminds me that retirement or life changes don’t mean an end to enthusiasm or creativity. Instead, they can be opportunities to explore new dimensions of my passions. This belief fuels my commitment to lifelong learning and adventure. Ultimately, it affirms that as long as I hold onto my passions, they will keep inspiring and motivating me throughout my life.

Which creative heroines should Peter invite to tell their story?

Lily Petrova

How can you contact me? 

Email: catherineanushkawhiteviola@outlook.com

Instagram: catherineanushkawhiteviola 

YouTube: catherineanushkawhiteviola